I realize that lately I am really not into myself; I didn’t notice it until today. I don’t know why I become like this. So tomorrow I decide to go to the lake with mama and papa Kevin to give myself give myself sometime to think and freedom. It seems like I don’t know what to do with myself right lately. I have been so confused and keep my mind change in every decision I make which is so abnormal for me to do. Oh well, I know NO one can solve it but only myself, so I really have to figure out what I really want in my life.

Today I did a lot of thinking about moving in with my mother again. I don’t understand myself lately; I frequently change my decision. Oh gosh this is not really a big problem but why do I have to make it too difficult for myself. Well, I should focus my mind and do my online task. It would be a lot better lol!

Anyway the other day I suddenly snap myself when I remembered that I don’t need to have an internet connection in order for me to make a blog layout, because I am only going to use Photoshop and I will just use Jeff’s computer when I have to install the layout. Hmm my mind is really loosing up. I think I also need to upgrade my memory like Jeff’s computer that I am using now. Gosh it’s so freaking slow, it took me ages to open a file because it needs a new computer memory upgrade.

Today is not a great day for me because we have to cancel our plan of going to NYC just because of the rain. I really hate it because I was really looking forward to it. I even ready my camera last night and I even prepared what I am going to wear lol. But this is what happens; I guess I’m too excited.

Oh well there is always a next time anyway. So for now I will just have to enjoy myself reading about this Betastax reviews. It looks interesting to me. I may have to tell my sister about it, since she gained a lot of weight from her pregnancy and now she is starting with her diet and also considering of taking some kind of diet pills.

Gosh I feel so bloated right now, I just finished my lunch and I guess I eat too much lol! I really enjoy so much my meal it’s, not only because it’s a Filipino dish, but it’s because I really miss having adobong pusit. I can’t even remember when was the last time I had it. I guess when I was still in the Philippines, because I never remember I had it even once when I was still in Louisiana. When I was there in Louisiana I hardly buy seafood’s because they are expensive and they were not fresh. But since I move here in NY I spoiled myself with lots of seafood’s. No wonder why I have been gaining few pounds already in just a month. Oh well I just need to really get motivated and work out, so that I won’t turn into jumbo.

If I am in Louisiana right now, I will probably be wearing shorts and sleeveless but here in the new place where I’m at now, gosh I still have to wrap myself. Why? It’s because it’s pretty chilly outside right now and it looks like it’s going to rain too. I’m even shaking while typing this entry. I hope I can feel the summer soon because I have been thinking of doing some gardening at the backyard as soon as Mr. sunshine will show up. I saw some beautiful ground covers online that I like to plant. So I’m hoping that can start my gardening, but right now I just can’t go out with this kind of weather brrrr makes me wants to go back to bed and snuggle my pillow.

I felt terrible this past few days. My stomach is always gurgling which I don’t understand why. I always feel hungry even though mostly I do when I’m alone is eat and eat, a nonstop eating, munching here and there. No wonder why my body feels so heavy. I know that I should do more exercise not only when I get remember it. Hmmp! how can I lose some of this fats in me if I only go to the gym only when I don’t get lazy? Even though I have been taking some weight loss pills lately, if I don’t do some exercise the result will not be as good as what I expected. Grrrr! I really need to motivate myself, or else only I will suffer and will never stop complaining lol!

Huh! When I woke up this morning I felt so good, although I realize that my body is sweating even though it’s cool outside and the windows in our bedroom are open. We really don’t close the windows during the night when we’re going to bed, so that we can always breathe fresh air. Plus the fact that it could help us save with our electricity bills because we don’t need to use the air-condition. But anyway I finally create my twitter account. I know I said here before that I created a twitter account but I was in a hurry at that time and was not able to finish it. So finally I have registered myself. Please to those who are in twitter can you add me up?my twitter ID is (imaesia) Hehe! Thanks!

I just finish talking to my friend on the phone. It’s been a while since the last time I heard something about her. I just learned that they just got back from their European cruises vacation. She is so excited to share with me all their vacation photos, with the Alhambra in the background. She told me that she really had a good time and they also stop so many places that she hasn’t been before. I can tell how satisfied she is with their vacation. She said that she that the money they spend was all worth they even plan to do it again on their wedding anniversary.

We were planning to buy my own can soon but we have a lot of things that needs to be consider, like looking for the best and affordable car insurance. So right now I’m here online searching and trying to figure out what will be the best car insurance to get. So I am reading this insurance quotes online but seems like my mind is empty and couldn’t understand what I am reading at all. Crazy me, I guess I will read it again later cause I can’t really focus my mind reading with this stuff, especially with the sound of my rumbling stomach that asking for food at this early lol. I don’t understand myself lately because I always get hungry even though I just eat. So anyway I better start looking for food.

Until now my computer is not connected to the internet yet, right at this moment I am using someone else’s computer. I think my router is not compatible with this computer I am using now because it gives me a hard time connecting to the internet. I have been installing it for so many times but I still didn’t get any connection. Now I am thinking to run to the Circuit City nearby to buy a new wireless router cause I really need to work on my computer, plus I have so many important files stored in my computer but I couldn’t get through to it. So I decided to get a new router and hoping this time it will work.